Lately at night when I go to bed and think through my day and look for blessings so I can give thanks, I realize that I haven’t been my best. I’ve been impatient. I’ve been
tired exhausted. I haven’t made time for fun with my children, my spouse or my friends. I barely keep the house clean. I have been short tempered. I have been a lazy cook. I’m not reading as much. I’m not writing as much. I’m not exercising as much.
Instead of playing a game with my son, I bought him a new app on my ipad and told him he could sit next to me and play it while I work. Instead of reading a book my daughter asked me to read so we could talk about it later, I put it (and her) aside with a not now, maybe later… when we both know later isn’t happening. Instead of hanging up the artwork brought home so proudly, I left it sitting on a chair (now covered with random scarves & gloves).
There isn’t enough of me to go around right now. I could make excuses but I won’t. I hope I can find time soon to re-prioritize and give more focus to the things that deserve my focus. I’ve been better.